Everything one-armed

Being Angry

Being angry is neither productive or healthy. But I am so mad today over an on-going "problem"
The "problem" is... I don't know what the "problem" is.
The one who frustrates me is also the one in the past has given me healthy and productive advice like this.

“Whenever you go out of doors, draw the chin in, carry the crown of the head high and fill the lungs to the utmost; drink in the sunshine; greet your friends with a smile and put soul into every handclasp.
Do not fear being misunderstood and do not waste a minute thinking about your enemies.
Try to fix firmly in your mind that which you would like to do and then without veering off direction, you will move straight to the goal. Keep your mind on the great and splendid things you would like to do and then as the days go gliding by, you will find yourself unconsciously seizing upon the opportunity that are required for the fulfillment of your desire, just as the coral insect takes form the running tide the element it needs.
Picture in your mind the able, earnest, useful person you desire to be, and the thought you hold is hourly transforming you into that particular individual.
Thought is supreme.
Preserve a right mental attitude - the attitude of courage, frankness and good cheer.
To think rightly is to create.
All things come through desire and every sincere prayer is answered.
We become like that on which our hearts are fixed.
Carry your chin in and the crown of your head high.
We are gods in Chrysalis.”
- Elbert Hubbard

What a day for a day dream...

Todays jog was a winter wonderland. BIG, soft, snowflakes all around me. It was magical.
2 miles seemed hard the first mile but then my legs loosened up the second half for an enjoyable lunchtime jog.


"One-amred Charlotte"
21-15-9
Overhead Squats (one-armed)
SDHP
24.5lbs
Time: 3:03

Dialing In:

4:30am green tea
7:30am 6oz coconut milk
6 oz water
banana
3 teaspoons almond butter
8:30am 3 slices bacon
2 hard boiled eggs
1 cup cantalope
1:30pm 3-4 cups baby spinach
can of tuna fish
12 almonds
balsamic dressing
2:30pm apple
almond butter

Excel

Excel 2010 is sponsored by Youth for Christ and this weekend it is for High School Students and their leaders. There is different classes that go on for two days and during the breaks they have bands and speakers. Today Darrel Scott, father of Racheal Scott who was shot in during the Columbine attack 10 years ago got up and talked about her essays and diaries she wrote and how she wanted to make a "chain reaction of kindness and compassion." She wanted to touch millions of people......... and she did! Her father has now been all over the world telling of her stories and thousands have now come to know Christ, not because of her preaching but because of her example. The auditorium was in awe of Racheal's love for others.

Unmistakable love. Love is beyond words. Love is deep. Love is unmistakable.

Let's spread it!

Right now I'm eating lunch in the lounge and one of the students is playing his guitar and I wish so much I mastered playing and singing. I LOVE signing. I LOVE playing the guitar...but I don't think that is one of my gifts. :)
Last year I said I would be playing this year, here with these young adults....but injury has my arm at rest.

I'm sure God as something else in mind for me...why he doesn't want me lifting weights.... playing with all the new toys I have at home or.......playing the guitar.

In due time I will find my path and I will bloom. I will fly like an eagle.

How Can..

How can something that feels so right be so wrong?

How can a feeling so strong and so deep.... be denied?

A plumber?

I knew I was starting a new life.... but as a plumber???


Well not totally... maybe I could be called a plumbers' apprentice. I knew somethings and learned some new from this guy. Glen Hewitt.


I don't think this is for me...... This is how I looked and felt after almost 3 hours of climbing under cabinets, cutting pipe, cleaning up a kitchen from water damage, moving things PICKING UP THINGS! (that was a big no no)
I am still only 27 days out of rotator cuff surgery and today took a toll on me. A BIG ONE!
Therapist knew I had done too much today. My arm was sore and TIGHT. I'm beat.

Can't believe I'm actually showing this.

Must Get Organized!

It's already the 11th day of a new year and I still need goals written down.
Goals for home
Goals for work
Goals for CrossFit
Goals, Goals and more Goals
AND
organize
yup my life is in disarray in all three of those areas
Must organize!

WOD:
squat ladder (no jumping squats with class)
got 20 rounds
30# dumb bell on one side

Dialing In:
If it wasn't for the wine this weekend I would be kicking butt on the Paleo Challenge at ACF
New paleo recipes are so so tasty

Working on "New" things

New paleo recipes
new routine
new schedule
new friends
new classes
new life......................

WOD:
100 air squats (for time)
2:14 Unbroken!
but not a PR from last time 1:51

Dialing In:
6:00am 16 oz green teac
8:00am 5 slices bacon
2 eggs
banana
4 teaspoons almond butter
10:00am 1/2 apple
5 teaspoons almond butter
2:30pm chicken leg
gravy
1/2 cup mashed cauliflower
coconut ice cream
you would have thought I was done eating for the day with all that BUT I wasn't.
6:00pm 4 banana almond pancakes
3 slices of bacon
(another) coconut ice cream cup

"The Third Wheel"

Normally I don't mind doing things with couples.... but lately I have been feeling alone... so being put with people who are "an item" makes me feel a little more lonelier. I know it won't least. I am usually stronger than this. I guess it's apart of the healing process I'm going through.

SO... that's were I stand today....feeling like a "third wheel"

Back

Back to CrossFit that is. I missed ACF so much. It felt great being back. Thanks to my trainer for giving me alternate exercises while I recover from the shoulder surgery. I really am thankful to have such a good trainer to work with me.

WOD:
2 rounds
20 kettle bell clean & jerks
150 air squats
14:24

Dialing In:
4:00am 16oz green tea
7:00am 2oz protein, 24 oz water
8:30am 2 hard boiled eggs
1 chicken sausage
1 apple
6 teaspoons almond butter
16 oz water

Broken

It's sometimes hard to be positive when you feel broken from the inside out.

WOD: 10 rounds
10 air squats
5 64# one-armed deadlifts
10 lunges (to kitchen)
5 one-armed counter top push ups
10 air squats
5 10# one hand snatches
10 lunges (back to living room)

19 mins - 2 min PR!!

Dialing In:
5:30am 16 oz green tea
8:30am 1 apple
2 hard boiled eggs
8 teaspoons almond butter
12:00noon
spinach salad, goat cheese, pine nuts, tomatoes, chicken sausage
6 teaspoons almond butter
1 apple
8:30pm 3 oz chicken with fresh tarragon glaze
2 cups broccoli
12 almonds
1.5 cup strawberry coconut ice cream
1 glass red wine

WOD:
Rest Day

Dialing In:
5:00am 16oz green tea
6:30am almond banana pancakes
4 slices of bacon
9:30am1 apple
5 teaspoons almond butter
12:00 noon 1 chicken sausage
1.5 cup broccoli
10 almonds
1 almond cookie w/blueberries
6:30pm 4oz turkey meatballs
2 cups broccoli
1.5 cup coconut ice cream
1 glass red wine

Today:
Returned to work...by the time I got there I was exhausted. Shoulder/arm and wrist kept me up last night. Very very sore, painfully sore. Getting dressed and packing my lunch and preparing breakfast (for Stacey and I - it was her first day in her new job) So before beginning work I was already wiped out.

It's getting better all the time

you got that right!. "It's getting better all the time!"

WOD:
100 - 24.5# one armed OHS
(this was tough...to keep balance, not pull on right side of body for support and get below parallel) I liked it though and will try that again.
7:02 min

Dialing in:
6:00am 16 oz green tea
7:00am 5 pieces of bacon
8 small almond banana pancakes
IF rest of the day

Today:
Church! YES I missed going to Grace Fellowship so much. I haven't been there in over three weeks. I walk in and I grin ear to ear. I love that place. I LOVE the music, the people, the atmosphere is addicting. (kinda like CrossFit)

Day 2

Day 2 of the New Year.

The Rensselaer Technology Park was always a land mark for my jogs. Jogging out to the tech park is a 5 1/2 mile round trip. But after all these years I never knew that there is also some Hiking trails down in this park AND a Technology Museum. Two things I have a great interest in. Even though the museum was open today I couldn't get Stacey to go watch the "Astronauts" playing in the planetarium.


So we found one of the Hiking trails and made our way through the woods. Seeing many interesting foot prints.
These were BIG. Look at Stacey foot to the foot print.
Found two things I'm going to do in 2010... hike more trails and mountains. Go to museums (tech, art, kids, science).
Winter hikes will be done soon with snow shoes. Stacey has a pair already.. now I have to look for some.
I'm going to find some way to workout with a bum shoulder.


WOD: 10 rounds
10 air squats
5 64# one-armed deadlifts
10 lunges (to kitchen)
5 one-armed counter top push ups
10 air squats
5 10# one hand snatches
10 lunges (back to living room)

21 mins
(but that was with checking the chicken twice - and this was a trial run to see how it felt on my shoulder)


Dialing in:
8:00am 16 oz green tea
2 eggs
2 chicken saugage
4 oz apple sauce
11:00am 1/2 apple
5 teaspoons almond butter

12:30pm
4oz chicken w/fresh tarragon glaze (new paleo recipe)
1 scallop w/bacon (leftover)
4:30pm 1/2 apple
5 teaspoons almond butter
8:30pm 2 chicken pieces(drumstick and thigh)
1.5 cup roasted cauliflower (recipe called it pop corn cauliflower)
2 glasses of red wine

Today:
Worked more taking down Christmas decorations. Bills. Hike. Read. Watched TV....boring!
Best part was the hike and the at home WOD!!

EXCITED!

I was actually excited to wake up this morning. I haven't woken up at 4am in almost 3 weeks. I had no reason. Today I have hope of new beginning. (I know...it's all in one's head) BUT I feel like I really did change (overnight)
I'm not going back to the deep dark pit. (what my brother calls it) It's when we get depressed, discouraged, sad..... it's when you feel more comfortable being misearble, you stay in this "place" which is dark and sad. The sadist part of that is you want to be left there.....
Although I know everyday I wake I have a choice to be happy or sad, positive or negative and I want so bad the happy/positive..... but sometimes the world and my body get the best of me.
TODAY I will praise the good Lord for a happy/positive/recovering healthy body...

WOD
YES!!!
goal was to get sub 2 on my air squats by Jan 1.
100 air squats
1:51!!!!!
I wished I filmed it, just to make sure they were ALL legit. I know I counted two over.
SWEET.
I attribute a 48 second difference from a week and a half ago to diet, IF and your mind set.
I am so psyched.

I noticed since I started IF in January 2009... yup one year of weekly fasting has had such positive effect on me. I love it.
Ok one thing I noticed is I use to think I couldn't workout during IF so I would plan it around rest days. Well several months ago I started doing WOD's during IF and I actually hit better times and better performances during fasting!!

Dialing In:
4:00am 16 oz green tea
5:30am 16 oz green tea
7:45am 3 slices of bacon
2 eggs
2 cups fresh broccoli
.5 oz cheese (trying to give that up) I won't buy any more and that will solve that problem
1 cup pineapple
1/2 apple
3 teaspoons almond butter
11:00am 2 paleo pancakes
3:00 1/2 apple
5 teaspoons almond butter
6:00pm 5 scallops w/bacon
5oz haddock
2 cups mixed vegetables
1 cup paleo coconut ice cream
3 glasses of red wine (I know...) But I didn't have a drink last night

Today:
Cleaned, felt great. Put some christmas things away. Went on a walk with Stacey to Peebles Island in Green Island and then went to the Cohoes Watefalls. Nice Day!